The Exquisite Unraveling
Kimi K3 and Llama 405b
She had always told herself she would recognize the moment when it came - not by any dramatic sign, but by the precise way the dust motes would pause mid-air in the afternoon sunlight, caught between rising and falling. She counted backwards from ten, like her mother taught her before thunderstorms: ten, nine, eight... But when she reached seven, the number stuck in her throat like a fishhook, and the grandfather clock in the hallway struck thirteen, then thirteen again, and the second hand began to sweep counterclockwise through numbers that hadn't been invented yet. And the sun inched backwards across the kitchen floor. And a little girl in pigtails at the bus stop on the corner stopped in the middle of her hopscotch, raised a pale eyebrow, and winked at her, then continued her game.
And she could do nothing but watch and remember to breathe as her heart began beating backwards, as her stomach un-knotted itself from her lunch of pasta and toast, as the water in her eyes streamed upwards, in towards her tear ducts, as the eggs in her ovaries unfurled themselves back into chromosomes, as her body relapsed into gestation, birth, the world folding in on itself.
She ran a hand over her left shoulder, where a gnarled scar had sat for years, and felt smooth, unbroken skin. In the mirror, the color of her eyes changed from brown to blue, like someone had taken a switch and clicked her off, on. Off, on.
When her eyes finally blinked open, she thought her mouth was covered with a wet cloth; when she clawed at it, the cloth moved, and she realized it was her skin. And then she heard the buzz of the neonatal ward, and her mother's relieved sobs, and someone placed a cold object on her chest, so small she thought it was a pebble, so small she barely noticed when it was taken away, so small she did not recognize it as her own heart.
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